A Century of Disg(race)

Words and Collages byFaylita Hicks

The long leg of Interstate Highway 35 starts in the watery slip of Minnesota’s port city, Duluth, casually treading the country’s conservative corridor through Iowa, Missouri, Kansas and Oklahoma until it lands a kick square in the chest of Texas—conveniently ripping the city of Austin in half. The interstate dances through Austin’s rural and urban sister-cities like the concrete shadow of the venomous rattlesnake many of us have come to know it as.

An expensive and rapidly expanding trap in the heart of Texas, the highway has divided the city’s core populations for almost a century. And as it dilates, it shifts the Black and Latinx communities further and further east towards the rising sun. I should know; I’ve been watching a clandestine sundown descend closer and closer to the underfunded, unprotected and unappreciated Black-owned businesses and colorful neighborhoods that make up Austin’s historic east side—what the City Council labeled “The Negro District” in 1928.

Ninety-three years later, in February 2021, the season of love was snuffed out by a snowstorm, the wrath of which Texas had not seen in the entirety of its 176 years, turning every corner of the state into a frozen white hall of soundless terror. Over nine million people, including myself, lost their electricity and water—their warmth. Most of us clung to the corners of our homes, stuffing windows with blankets and scavenging for whatever could be saved from our refrigerators. Most of us, that is. Far too many residents didn’t have the benefit of corners or blankets or refrigerators, and when the state’s independent power grid went down, thousands went without relief. Hundreds died. The historic freeze left thousands of houseless folx vulnerable to the snow, sleet and hail and, in the end, five houseless people had to have both of their feet amputated. Six died due to exposure. The storm, what we can realistically assume is a precursor to the more extreme side-effects of climate change to be witnessed over the next decade, compounded our greatest failing—we are not a society interested in the survival of all.

Things I Did in the Storm

A Poem

i.
Crawl back into 
the cocoon of myself

a pile of laundry 
covering my fragile furless body 

in the choking scent of Tide
a wave masking me

from the spindly legs 
of the chill  

that finally came—
had been oncoming 

for decades. 

ii.
Step outside to smoke
draw in the air

the worried faces 
of my father           

and his wife  
and their new child 

watch the flurry grow             
from the leather couch     

in the living room 
in the heart of the cold       

tiny house         
that was to be ours.

I know my father               
wouldn’t be thinking         

about the house or the leather
but about our land and our dogs          

scattered on it. His faithful 
left to weather the unlikely 

on their own.

iii.
Charge all of my machines         
my digital diaries/tinseled confessions.

Unhook from the world                   
ask the Nothing Left    

what now? 
Be greeted              

with the kind 
of silence      

only death or snow 
can offer.                                   

Hold my cell phone up to the sky              
and pray for a signal.

iv.
Read only the books with red covers             
the warmth an optical illusion

to make me think I am alive           
in the world, a part of 

the words constructing the worlds     
where streets are filled

with strangers making memories or mistakes                   
where I am sitting on a rooftop in Colombia           

or catching a taxi in Manhattan          
or making sweaty love on silk sheets in Shanghai.

I am so hot I am sticky 
and my body shines

through night.

v.
Consider Joan Didion’s potential futures in California
as opposed to my potential futures in California.

vi.
Cook bread and pasta and the little bit of fish left in the refrigerator, which only just came back on with the electricity. Heat water in the kettle and the Keurig simultaneously. Unplug the microwave and fill it with ginger and lemon tea. Turn off the oven and fill it with the cooked fish, the bread, the pasta, and the kettle. Download dozens of books and movies I’ve been meaning to read or watch. Pull out the leftover Hennessy, Bacardi, Malibu, and Sprite; line them against my bedroom wall. Turn off all the lights and wait for the storm to take over.

vii.
Listen to the river city 
unplugged.                 

Look over the fields           
flooded with snow.                       

Strain for any sounds                               
of crying or calls for help.         

Wonder about the snow                             
reaching California.

Send my smoke to dangle over 
the trees in Escondido.                

Forty miles from the border  
where my little sister is still sleeping              

on the pavement               
because no one can wake her.

I send the smoke instead of the snow 
because one will take you faster than the other

and according to Twitter               
the houseless matter now.

viii.
Paint my fingers and mouth red      
for the first time in over a year.

Kill the Hennesy.               
Kill the Bacardi.                

Kill the Malibu, too.

ix.
Decide not to apologize to my father               
about blocking his calls. Decide not to 

stay in the river city                              
when this is over. Decide not to 

blame myself                     
for my sister’s bad weather.

Decide not to keep 
the biscuits in the microwave.

Decide not to watch 
the movies I downloaded.

Decide not to put my food out 
in the snow.

Decide not to turn off 
the faucet. 

Keeping the pipes from freezing
is all I know how to do.

x.
Crawl back 
into the cocoon 
of myself.

Several months later as I was preparing this essay, in April 2021, the city of Austin saw three separate yet equally disastrous fires set ablaze at houseless encampments, all within 24 hours. The concentrated flood of kindling took to social media, brushed itself across the pages of the tolerant and intolerant, overtook the borders of Travis Lake and sucked the oxygen out of the white-washed west side of the city. Instead of a call to find adequate housing options for the city’s growing houseless population, the fires—a clearly orchestrated attack on the shelterless—were noted by Governor Gregg Abbot as one of the many reasons why the city should vote in the affirmative for Prop B, “a prohibition on sitting, lying, and camping, and limiting solicitation in public areas.” Who was prohibited from sitting in public...or lying down in public...or camping in the parks...or soliciting help...didn’t need to be clarified. Like the segregationist policies before it—“The Undesirables” were known to all.

The proposition, which failed to provide any alternatives or solutions for finding housing for houseless people, passed with a clear distinction between the voters of the East side of the city and the West. On the surface, the houselessness issue in Austin has nothing to do with race—but to truly understand why Austin is currently faced with this inequitable issue, a look back at its history of poor race relations and its active efforts against equity is in order—starting with the creation and development of the city’s infamous highway, IH-35, in 1945.

When I was in my early twenties, my mother, a nondenominational Christian, found my books on Wicca and Buddhism and asked me to leave her house. A month away from moving into my new apartment and not knowing who to call, I found myself sleeping on a bus stop a block from the apartment complex I would soon call home. It was the first time in my life I understood that the people who I had casually nodded my head to, maybe given a dollar or two to, driven by without acknowledging, and flat out rushed away from—were just people whose luck had run out. Sisters to so-and-so. Somebody’s daddy, in-between places. Folx who had run out of ways to keep a roof over their heads. And sometimes—maybe a lot of the time—it wasn’t their fault. And even if it were, that didn’t change the fact that they were people deserving of respect and uplift. I am disappointed it took my own bus stop bench and pile of plastic grocery store bags to see and understand this.

One by one, dozens of Black people from Austin’s historic east side have found themselves uprooted and forced to relocate, some to Houston or San Antonio, others to the streets and city parks. A dark flood of tangible history, the Black people of this city, a proud and storied congregation of entrepreneurs and educated savants, have slowly escaped into the growing complex of Austin’s industry, fighting their way into the headlines and taking city offices to task for the complicit actions in de-constructing and de-funding the initiatives, schools and programs developed to uplift their diverse communities. This targeted displacement isn’t a coincidence. It is the catalytic outcome of a mandate set not in 2021—but in the decades before many of Austin’s current inhabitants were even born.

A 1917 case, Buchanan v. Warley, saw the Supreme Court pronounce that the racial segregation of neighborhoods is unconstitutional and a violation of the Fourteenth Amendment’s protections for freedom of contract. This particular mandate saw pushback from all around the country, but especially in Texas. Hearing the landmark verdict, Austin did not set about integrating the state’s capital. They chose instead to find any route around the edict. They spent years trying to find better and more effective ways to segregate its Black population, moving them away from their growing schools and businesses. They prevailed by establishing the Negro District, red-lining it for years before transforming the segregation line, on the road known as East Avenue, into IH-35 in 1946. The highway, then, set the Black community on a trajectory that leads us to the present moment.

Dogs and Their Bones

Like an American Pit
Bull, with a bone
in its mouth, Austin
chews on the interior
of the city, bites down
hard enough to break
the highway in two—
suck on the dark marrow
for its good meat
and charcoal smoke.
At the Barbeque,
the white meat slides
off the streets,
and the dark meat
gets so heavy with sweat
it softens and falls off
the clean white bone
too. And the dogs
love how the sidewalk becomes
a never-ending buffet
of things to sniff, bite, and bury.
When the festivals come,
with their city-wide sound of carnival,
the bones pile up on the stoops
of bars, churches, hotels, the airport,
the Drag, the Alamo Draft House,
the Governor’s Mansion, Zilker’s Park—
the bones pile up at the bus stops—
but no one cleans them out.
No one looks at clean, white
bones and says, “Who is going to clean this up?”
No one sends the dogs
during festivals. They wait—
until everyone has either fallen asleep
or gone home.

Today, Austin is one of the fastest growing cities in the country thanks to tech pillars like Tesla, Samsung, Apple, Google, and Charles Schwab. Vowing to bring a renewed commerce into the behemoth state, these corporations brought with them millions of young, shiny faces belonging to college-educated elites with a penchant for “authentic tastes” and eclectic music. The once-sacred mantra “Keep Austin Weird” has found its way into five-star hotels, glamorously niche restaurants and invite-only galas.

The east side, which once housed the city’s unwanted Black residents, now boasts dozens of new apartments, condos, stores, restaurants, and art galleries—all of which have priced the original inhabitants out. What this has manifested is a classic study of gentrification—and a growing population of people with nowhere to go.

When the city again voted its way down the segregation line of IH-35 in May 2021, passing Prop B and making houselessness illegal in the city again, it empowered ghost-makers in uniforms—legally weaponized “peace officers”—to attack the people with nothing and nowhere to hide. In the coming months, hundreds of Black people, who now live wherever there’s shade to be found, are expected to be arrested for unlawfully “camping” in public spaces—and then caged and disappeared. Residents of the west side are looking forward to the “clean and gorgeous” streets.

Excerpt from Bar for Bar

For those of us without houses or homes,
this city charges after sundown
a gritty coin for each eye.
In this city, the streets ram 
themselves into coochies:
sodden women with bamboo for backs
and taffy for sex, both sweet and sour.
Star-cloaked women
who don’t bend or break.
Who catch Hondas right in they grills.
Women with electric pink hoofs
that drag in the slow churn
of the intersection. Clog
the sidewalks. Metastasize
along the corridor of East Avenue.
Sometimes, in the city’s silence
if you close your eyes,
you can hear knuckles
clip concrete/chip bricks
into side streets.
That’s when, out of tune
the guttural groove lyric
climbs glacier
out of another transient,
transparent, still.
Even in the morning.
It’s always: Where
are you going? Where
are you going?
THIS city charges after sundown.
But where I come from
we stay living in the light.
We write with pens and chisels,
clock out lead and played-out perception-laced pistols.
The city charges after sundown, but 
where I come from—we stay living
in the light.

In 2016, the city of Austin finally established an Equity Office, and the people who were the immediate descendants of Austin’s Black east side were encouraged. Surely now city leaders would listen and heed what they had to say. The general consensus was that equity would find its place soon enough. But when the George Floyd protests came to Austin and the community began to call for the defunding of the Austin Police Department—it became obvious that the city’s Equity Office was not expected to have nearly as much sway in the operations of the city as had been suggested. After agreeing to suspend the hiring classes of the Austin Police Department during the evaluation of the department’s ethical practices and training materials in the fall of 2020—the city made a sudden and disingenuous move to approve a new training class of inadequately trained police officers in Spring 2021. A panel convened by the Equity Office determined that without a complete overhaul of the training materials, including but not limited to the re-recording of several troubling de-escalation training videos—one of which featured a police officer attempting to de-escalate an interaction with a Black woman whose upper torso was exposed and left unobscured or edited in the formal tape shared with every training class—future trainees would be unprepared to empathetically and equitably engage community members.

With the announcement of the new training class came more disappointment. Money that was supposed to have been diverted from the police into transformative community programs slowly started to find its way back into the hands of the privileged, in whose hands it had always been.  The astounding early work of the Equity Office, a truly visionary survey intended to evaluate the City’s practices of equity and inclusion, went by the wayside.

This is how we know that the city of Austin is not ready for true equity and the legitimate protection of rights for all: it is not taking the recommendations of the one office created specifically to address these issues. It is, instead, reinforcing the racist segregation—which is as visible as the highway and metaphorically represented by its red-lined municipalities—by cowing to the dictations of a state government that houses its governor in the belly of Austin’s west side. In this way, the May 2021 passing of Proposition B is not a surprise for Black Austinites, housed and houseless. It is a continuation of an almost century-long story about the façade of freedom and equality for all in the capital city of Texas.

Before Moving to Austin 

You should know
this city’s thirst
for copper-tinged
sediment & meat 
fresh from the workers 
of the dying farms & fields
is never sated.

The most American thing
we’ve done—let them in
through the back door
& give them a uniform
to die in.

No one wants to admit 
that this city, sick
without a steady flux 
of salt-leaking
star-beaten bodies,
will turn in on itself
& chew on my sisters.

Their faces, an edible bouquet 
of Black & bloody balloons;
my brothers—their ghosts
hanging—like spinach
in the city’s teeth, swinging
from construction cranes
as flags for the dead or dying.

You should know—this city
would eat its young
for a profit.

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